She knew how it felt to long for someone with your whole being  and know that he would forever be out of reach.

Something interesting i found out today. Was getting all bored doing our marketing project, i clicked on google search and searched for understanding men. Guess what I found. 21 ridiculous breakup lines guys use. Here are some highlights:

• “The guy who marries you is so lucky!”

  what he means: “I just hope I’m not that lucky!”

•  “I think we got too close, too fast.”

  what he means: “When you put your toothbrush beside mine in the bathroom, that really freaked me out.”

well, of course there were some hard truths. spent the whole night checking out that website. needed to run away...i would say i did well.

oh.
(i apologise for calling you guys jerks this noon. i guess it isn't right to generalize.)

Ryan Manoo reminded me of this old song 'tears in heaven'.

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Beyond the door theres peace
I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears.

this man sounds like a grandpa that i would to and grab. hah, never got to hug my grandpa. never. have been making a few good friends in school. (my classmates) honestly speaking. i didn't and dont really like poly-life as compared to the life at IJ. Though IJ can be really gossip-y, we still had our family there. I could be myself. Right now, in poly, I AM still myself, but i'm not comfortable. That's normal i guess. Hannah was just telling me how tough it was for her to adjust too. I mean, afterall, its been ten years. Ten years in this crazy IJ family. I just wonder how the rest of the IJ girls are doing. ( Mainly those in poly) Not that i dont care fo the Jc-ians, but, its still somewhat similar i guess?

OH. i just had a test on windows mail. it is graded. haha! boys and girls. do you know how to use hotmail? :) hilarious i tell you. sad to say i didn't score full marks. and i've been trying out on my ccas. shall say too much about them but hey, i really enjoyed all of it.

colbie caillat? i really think its not only for tonight this time.
'Cause lately I've been stumbling feels like I'm recovering
But I think it's only for tonight'

honestly, deciding on where you want to go is so much more frustrating then waiting for the naggy teachers to return our o level results.  i cant make up my mind at all. poly?jc? well, mum says poly. then what next. ngee ann? singapore poly? brother says ngee ann is better. the chiens says no. PROBLEM 1.then what course? banking and finance? or accountacy? i prefer accounting more.after all the discussions with mummy, a question pops up. "why dont you wanna go to a jc?". screaming aloud wouldn't make easier for me but i guess it would help me feel better. God, give me a sign. (btw, thank you all those who prayed and messaged me all the words of encouragement and wishes. really appreciate it. you guys make me feel really blessed. thanks)

so things have been rather slow for me. haven't been doing anything much. its just pure slacking and wasting of precious time. chinese new year is coming and my things are still all over the place. its spring cleaning time. i dread clearing up the most. but right now. the more worrying thing is about my future school. seriously. i hope i dont make the wrong decision. anyways,

I'M CLOSING DOWN MY BLOG SOON. i prefer a personal diary. :)